Divorce Stories

It Was About Time

This viewer submits his story about his ex-wife connecting with an old school friend. We learn that he is able to cope with life without her, and find a silver-lining throughout one of the lowest points of his life.

Story from Emily H

Feb 1, 2024

“Here’s how it happened: It was a Thursday night and when I came home from work, she was sitting there with an open bottle of wine. She poured me a glass and said that we had to talk. Never a good thing to hear from your partner. She told me that she thought I should move out. She said that we had been growing apart for a long time, and that she did not feel like she was in love with me anymore. It turns out she had reconnected with an old boyfriend on Facebook, and she had decided that she wanted to pursue that relationship. The way she presented it, it was already a done deal. I told her, ‘Ok. If that’s what you want, I will do what I can. She left that night to stay with a friend, and I tried to keep myself together.”

At first he hoped they might get back together, but as time went on, he wasn’t sure he really wanted her back. He was in mourning, not for Allison exactly, but for their relationship.

“I don’t know if I even missed her that much. It was more the shock of her leaving me that hurt than the actual absence of Allie. We had been together for such a long time, and in the end I guess we really were leading separate lives. But when she told me she wanted me to move out…Man, that was a sucker punch.”

Our family trip to Stratton

The first few months were really difficult, I woke up, went to work, came home, watched TV or read, drank too much, went to sleep and then started it all over the next day. But then he started talking to people, started coming out of his shell. Before, when I went to dinner with Allison, I went as part of a couple: the waiters and other patronsdidn’t notice him; I was an invisible part of the landscape to them. And I didn’t notice them either; his only focus was on his wife. But now when I go out in his neighborhood, people greet me. Going to dinner at my favorite restaurant meant the owner would come by for a chat, bring me an appetizer on the house, sit with me for a while over a glass of wine. I was becoming a part of the community.

“A few months later, even though she’s the one who had wanted to leave, Allie asked me why I didn’t fight for her. Why I didn’t love her enough to beg her to stay with me. This made me so angry, since when she sprung the whole thing on me, there was no way I could have budged her. There was nothing I could have said that would have changed her mind. Here she was saying she resented me for not fighting for her.

Around this time, I began dating someone, which helped me to recover a sense of myself, even though the relationship didn’t work out in the end. This other woman once asked him what he would do if Allison wanted to get back together.

“I didn’t know how to answer that question at the time, but later I was grateful she asked it. Because Allison did eventually say she wanted to be with me again, and if I hadn’t already thought it through, I might have jumped at the chance. But when it came down to it, I realized that the reasons I would get back together with her were about proving something to myself, winning something over her, and it would not have been because I loved her or really wanted her. So I said no.

I might not be a part of Rick & Allison anymore, but at least I know what it feels like to be Rick.”